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Thursday, August 16

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I’m uberly psyched.

So ended my two and a half month long vacation from the Philippines. It started on May 23 to Aug 11. It’s really bad for me to say this but, I can barely remember a thing. You all know how bad my memory is.

I remember some things though:
1. Tagaytay Highlands: The not very well done Tribal Music Video, were we had to share one sarong and we ended up dancing Arashi and Young Man in the end. But it was a very well lived trip to tagaytay. We had croquettes de jamon and brought home some sweet pineapple.

2. Trying to catch Aurora and Erika during their lunch breaks and dismissals. What do we do? Eat. That was a pretty long Bugong fest. I’m sick of seeing Paseo Center and Books for Less. Apparently me and Erika’s promise to “exercise” ended after 3 once a week sessions.

3. I barely remember Erika’s birthday. (Don’t kill me.) Wait wait wait. I think I remember it. We were watching a really bad subbing of HanaKimi and I don’t know what we did afterwards. I know there was food and I had to go home because I had to go to tacurong in the morning.

4. Tacurong was… pretty awkward. I think it was hard for me to make the most out of it because I didn’t know what to talk to my lola about and everyone was speaking ilonggo. Ukay-Ukaying was a disappointment.

5. BAGUIO ---was a disappointment. I was completely expecting ukay-ukay galore but no~. I had to attend the crummy inauguration of Sitel. (No offense, Sitel. Your site is wonderful and all but I had no purpose, nor right to be there. But I was there anyway and emphasis on the “against my will” part.) However, in the aftermath of baguio, my tita brought me a wonderful and delicious bottle of Ube Jam.

6. Anego was a happy spontaneous buy I made. I’m completely considering Jin’s potentiality. However, I still think that Aurora is right about him. He’s a cheap wanna-be of MatsuJun’s ore-sama-ness. But that “oh, I wish!” for the younger man has become stronger nearing creepy oba-san fanoldlady-ness levels.

7. 168 is the SHITE, baby.

8. Ukay Ukay shopping with Joey! She is the gorgeous sexy yoda of ukay ukay shopping in Manila. What can I say? She’s gorgeous.

9. I’m tired of eating japanese food---- especially sashimi. My dad has made me sick of it. Amazingly.

10. I had Mediterranean/Indian/Persian CRAVINGS! Oh I love that shit. Me and Indian food should have a marriage. It makes me go like crazy. Not really. Not really crazy. Replace crazy for the word “diarrhea.”

11. My cuz Ash-wood is a fangirl of Battle Star Galactica. I’m so happy there’s another fangirl in the clan.

12. Erika should eat more. I’m just saying.

13. HAH! HAH! HAH! I’m the SMART ONE. I’m Sho!
In Erika’s desire for sentai, we, Erika, Aurora, Greta, Prit and I, have assigned ourselves colors and numbers. And just the other day in Prit’s house, we discovered that Arashi had assigned colors in their Taiwan Concert. Thus, I will list down the equivalents of the corresponding colors:
a. Aiba = Green =Prit = Tallest and Sickly-est
b. Ohno = Blue = Erika = Shortest and Best Voice
c. MatsuJun = Purple = Aurora = …HAHAHAHA.
d. Nino = Orange = Greta = Boyish(?) and “PJ hajimete? Ah! Gomen. Private Jetto hajimete?”
e. Sho = Red = Moi = The SMART ONE and the butchiest.
However there seems to be occasional arguments about our assigned jap boy. Like, Erika’s stupider than me. And Aurora claims to be not MatsuJun-ish.

Whatever. I just want to say that Greta always hangsout with Erika but Erika is married to Prit, and I’m no where near that equation and Aurora is busy taking ego shots.

AND in my defense, Aurora had a digital camera WAAAY before I did. AND her veteran skills at ego shot-ness is perfected by PRACTICE. And *I* haven’t even had enough practice to reach that level.

…

Anyway. For some reason, I’m currently addicted to Arashi. I think its because I’m out of addictions. And Jap people are way more fun than American people.

However, what I fear most is that when I’ll be bored in my dorm, I’ll slowly start getting addicted to erika’s d-boys. Its scary that she gave me 17 gigs worth of D boys. Eep!

Well, Arashi fangirl update: I have moved from liking Matsujun to Nino to Sho and now to Ohno. Why? I guess it was the double attack of Utaban and AAA 3rd disc. There was a section of the disc where Ohno did his solo and his dance was just so awesome I had to watch it 5 more times. (except for that one part of the song where he just moved his hips, and for some reason I thought it was wrong. In an “I’m a guy and I feel like a gigolo” sort of way.)

Utaban though, I’m completely at awe on how he always pisses the younger host off. And how he’s all chummy chummy with the older host. I only saw one Utaban that was subbed but I want to see more of it. =x I’ll look around on crunchy roll and youtube. WOOT.

That was a pretty long post. I feel so lazy. I’m trying to do my own definition of “cleaning up” at home.

I’ll take my leave now. Most likely I’ll post again at my first day when I find out hoe to get the blasted internet there running and hopefully I can download. EEP!

Itsutekimasu!

Labels: arashi, fangirlism, philippines, vacation

Saturday, June 2

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[Naruto with SPOILERS]

Oh dearest Kabuto. You're fucking creepy now. you're creepier than me, fangirl wise. your obsession with orochimaru has scared me, honestly. I mean, you're such a pretty little smart boy and look now. you've... made your face ugly by making it 1/4 orochimaru's.

ew.

get a fucking life.

with much love, Candalf.

Jappy Jappy Boys

Obviously, they have sparked my obsession to dance. More specifically, dance like a happy happy and bishie jap boy. *le sigh*

thats it. I'm passing this obsession to my future son. Dear son, you better be dancing bishie with the bitchiness of Matsujun.

But I both curse and bless aurora for the wonderful (and strange) exposure to the JE community.

On my defense, I DONT KNOW ALL THE KAT TUN MEMBERS, THEIR HISTORY, THEIR TRIVIA, THEIR WHOLE NAMES!! so its all you, my dear. not me.

I am not really a JE fan. well, not compared to aurora. I just love small sigments of it. The gayness, the potential yaoi pairings, the dancing and of course, the hotness. but for everything else, kind of-sort of-not really.

I mean, I still love my j-indie music (because they're not really "rock" are they? nor pop) I love their music but not really care about their image. L'arc en ciel was the last band I was completely obsessed with. I mean a whole two years running.

and right now, I can really care less about what they do. Especially with their new album, I could really care less about it. I liked them before and not much now.

I missed being an obsessed fangirl.

lets see. Music for me has been,

Kinder 3: The Carpenters
grade 1 and 2: Disney (so would every girl)
grade 5 to 7: Anime Music
grade 7 to 1st year: Anime and Weiss
2nd year to 4th year: Alternative and L'arc en ciel
3rd Year to Current: VGM
1st year College to Current: Indie, Funk

[Current Status]
When: Sunday
Where: Alexa's Deli (across my house in Makati, Philippines)
Why: Free WiFi?
Drinking: Iced Caramel Macchiato

Todays Agenda: Church and being lazy

Recent Problem: Over Eating
Recent Irk: Kabuto became insanely ugly
Recent Realization: The older I get, the shallower I become
Recent Accomplishments: Tagaytay and Music Video
Recent Thanksgivings: that I have friends as racial and bitchy as me, and I have parents who can take care of me.

Projects: Mom's Brochure and my grandfathers book. Apparently, my mom and dad arent seeing me eye to eye about the book's slight make over.

[Tagaytay]
Was uber fun-iture. We ate plenty, the marinara and the croquete de jamon was soooo good. The cable car was slow and everyone thought it was the fun-icular.

There were foreigners about. It was hard to make korean jokes considering they were kind of all over the place and we had one continuously staring at our direction. It was annoying.

Aurora was mad at me for deleting pictures of her.
Greta was a bit disappointed at the lack of swimming.
Erika was irked at the way I suck at playing table tennis because I seem to not understand the "table" part.

However, food was appreciated, dances were horribly done and songs were... also horribly sung. all and all, it was a good day.

I'll stop rambing now. and be back in a few =p

Labels: fangirlism, music, naruto, vacation

Monday, April 9

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[Replies]
Aurora: Apparently all of matsu jun's hair is in his eye brows and no where else.

i did watch the opening of naruto where they show his silhouette doing those funky moves against a blue background. he's hot, when you don't see his face. i'm sorry, i said it.

Haha you dare to question my "son's" potential hotness?! I promise you that when he's 18, he's a character you'll regret insulting. BWAHAHAHAHA!!!

and when I imagine naruto with sasuke, they look a healthy age of 16. So I'm completely not insane. College age would be hotter I'm sure. But lets not go over 35.

you're so positive. When I hear you say "be happy" I think of jolibee. you should be their spokesman. but you're taiwanese drama star. I think it works.

Erika: Dude I just cant imagine tamaki with anyone. but I do love his and kyoya's "mama to papa" thing going on. and I cant imagine tamaki with haruhi because he treats her like a daughter, it confuses me. (ps. kyouya is hot)

I like kyouya and the twins. its natural for me to pair favorites. and its adorable that one of them subconsciously crushes haruhi.

I dont think my porfolio was awesome. they accepted me for my grades (surprsingly) And because not a lot of people went to the major I was applying for.

well sakura turns ok. but the whole three of them refelcting the sannin part is annoying. so I wish kishimoto did something else to her. But hey, seeing that sakura is a yaoi fan makes her kinda cool.

erika is so wise. *bows* not really an absence but my mom does enough for me and I feel bad making her do more. it doesnt feel fair on my part. but I'll take your advice.

oh yaoi. I'm surprsied not all girls agree on the yaoi part. I think its their mistake. I mean, if boys can have porn, then we should have boys having romantic relationships with each other.

...

[Gankutsuou]
Was very awesome. I didnt fast forward anything, surprisingly.

I compeltely heart Franz. I thought he was good looking and loyal and he made me cry in the end. Albert is fucking gay. Franz is gay. the Count was gay. I mean, what the fuck was with that kiss?!

Further more, I think the reason why Franz didnt love anyone was because he loved Albert, who SOOOO doesnt deserve his devotion, love and loyalty and etc.

It made me saddest in episode 17 when albert ran out on him and franz was calling him back. After a while franz just sat alone in their secret hideout and said "you still go to him..."

I want to punish albert for his ignorance and taking Franz gorgeous sexy existance for granted.

Bastard.

ALSO albert made it seem like his relationship with the count was EVERYTHING, when they've only met for like, what, 2 months!? WHAT THE FUCK! I mean franz has been there almost your whole fucking life, helping you, (loving you,) and never secretly conspiring against you and you BITCH to franz about feeling betrayed by the count.

you son of a bitch. I'll fucking murder you! did you ever think about franz?! you bastard. and how... uberly nice and gorgeous he is? and how he must feel like under soft sheets and moonlight?!

I'll stop. I'm fine. ANYWAY...

Franz also reminds me of Jowy from Suikoden II sans the betraying and the julia. Maybe it was because their best buddies and in the end they were still (kind of) loyal to one another in their hearts. (in the gayest way possible btw)

so the anime has inspired me to read the book. I have realized I can take a new apporach to doing the book: I'll draw the characters. ITs a good practice and it makes them good looking and leaves relationships vulnerable to my dirty dirty yaoi loving soul.

tee-hee.

on the other note. the boys of gankutsu are 15 years old. They're younger than naruto characters but look older. I'm amazed. see, the age doesnt matter. As long as they look hot, its fine.

[The O.B.G.Y.N.]
-- was very traumatizing. I remember half saying, half screaming: "If this is what sex feels like, I'll stay a virgin for the rest of my life!" I had a pap smear. This is the first time I went to an obgyny.

It wasnt really the cold metal clamper thing that bothered me. It was more like, THERESSOMETHINGGOINGINMEANDGETTINGWIDERWTF!!!!

I wish it'll never happen again. but its a yearly thing. well, I dont think it should matter to me because I'm not sexually active anyway.

(there is something weird about that term. "sexually active," I mean.)

[Nostalgia but not in an Awesome way.]
Theres something that took me 11 months to get over and for some reason, I've been bringing up the memories of it slowly and one by one.

Its like I'm breaking a shell that took me so long to make. Hammering it bit by bit and slowly seeing what "treasures" or "curses" I put inside.

maybe its because I've found the perfect background music to play with it. Maybe not. However, it is making me think of doing things I might regret, but surely not necessary.

[Mp3 I'm currently promoting for you to download]
Sondre Lerche - Happy birthday girl.

please download it. It was my favorite song when I saw them perform. and this song is sooo getting overplayed. I'm sure I'll be tired of it by the end of the week.

ps. I made a typo here but I cant seem to find it anymore. it was a theirs = they're typo. haha my bad.

Labels: emo, fangirlism, new experience

Thursday, March 22

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Bring out the fattened calf! I got in Pratt, bitches.

Yea.I got the news on a tuesday afternoon when I Was cramming my public speaking speach about Cramming.

I was so happy. I'm finally going to get out of this fucking state that is new jersey.

Well, I have to admit: at first, I kinda assumed that I can get into any school that I applied to, then I looked at my portfolio and realized what a crappy looking portfolio I had...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAnd I lost all confidence afterwards.

Well, what can you do. Dudes, I've got until May to tolerate this shit.

...
Fatima: You've quite the social life i see. I dont suppose you're going to america any time soon? tespan is completely scattered. it compeltely feels like we've gone a long way from our "innocent" grade 7 days.

Aurora: I admit it. Kimi wa petto is awesome. However, matsu jun would have been gorgeous if he fixed those blasted eyebrows.

I love how his dramas have manga. It makes me think that he's a dorky little boy. aww. Dude. having a human pet is the shit. I can imagine running a business on it.

I do want to see bambino. I mean hot jap boy + food = awesome.

Erika: HEY! kimi wa petto. thats all I have to say. its revolutionary, I tell you.

My portfolio is crappy. dont look *tear*.

Dude. dont you jsut want to have shikimaru's children after that? He IS awesome. its so... boyish, yet manly. I'm torn.

WAIT I'm acutally for the kyouya/kaoru and hikaru/haruhi. because haruhi/tamaki is just weird. I mean, he treats her like a daughter. But I'm so inlove with kyouya. <3 he's soo... my type. <3

...

Naruto.

had a thing where, his little bro did a kagebunshin + sexy no jutsu. but this time, he transformed into two boys in a awesomely sexy position.

Sakura, I didnt know you were a yaoi fan. I hate you less.

But yes, it was a major supportive yell from masashi kishimoto to all the naruto yaoi fans, i guess, telling us its ok to imagine sasuke and naruto having hot gay sex.

yey <3

...

School... is becoming a bit of a problem. I hate public speaking class. not only do they not get my jokes, they are also compeltely... NORMAL. I'm surrounded by normal people. I want to cower in a corner and hiss at them.

(I'm not making sense)

...

Parental Ramblings:

My mom and dad just left us. There seems to be a lot of tention between me and my mom in the financial topic. get this: she wants me to ask her for money if i want it.

because I never do. I dont want to be always dependednt on my mom because independence for me means => getting out of the house => me not having to attend any more god-forsaken masses.

She doesnt like it when people pity me when I dont have money and treat me to food. She said I have no sense of pride.

Well, I told her that I didnt really care about my sense of pride.

and thats where we had a very passive agressive argument in Junior's over Strawberry shortcake-cheesecake.

Well, mom said that I'm trying to be difficult when I'm the one who never bothered her for and about ANYTHING.

=_= my dad's right. He has been under my mom's very righteous rule for a long time and he gave me a word of advice: "just nod your head and say, "yes, mom. I understand."

Labels: family, fangirlism, school

Thursday, March 1

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Fatima: Belated Happy birthday!! your blogs are in friends only mode. =p hahaha dude you're 21. you can now have sexy parties, which I'm sure you've already had. I hope to see you soon, yo.

Kath: I'm in sewell, sweetie. I'm online just at weird times. hahaha. aww I miss you too. hows my potential source of money going? remember, its ok foryou to date the chineses because you're one yourself. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Aurora: I try to treat resolutions like something I'll try to achieve when I can still remember them.

well, you're right. like goals. hahahaha. I only enjoy drinking if it's good and I'm with a small group of friends doing karaoke.

Dude. I dont need a bed for drama. I'm too glued to the screen and horrible paralized in suspence to notice anything else. hahaha!

I have been junified. + warning of spoilers.

(I hate you, aurora.)

Ok. first off: I was cramming my portfolio over the weekend and to treat myself in the very rare number of free hours I had on sunday, I decided to watch the new Hana Yori Dango 2.

And OHMYGODS. A void was left in my heart. I wasnt really crying but i was very very moved (no matter how cheesy makino is). Utada hikaru went back into my life in the form of Flavor of Life, a song that was played over and over again in the most dramatic moments of the series.

it just breaks my heart.

So the series isnt done yet. its only up to episode 7. on Tuesday, I had some free time. I told myself to go do my homework because I have so much stuff to do and sleep afterwards because I was very deprived of sleep. However, ther ewas still that void in my heart left from hana yori dango 2.

So I decided to distract myself by watching Kimi wa Petto. (Mind you, this happens to me all the time with scanlations.)

Apparently, I ended up having a Kimi wa Petto Marathon and not sleeping or doing my homework (which made me complete academically ready to be hanged.)

Watching kimi wa petto "junified" me. At first I never liked matsu jun that much because, well, he got all the roles of the characters that i like in the manga (except for domyoji) and he wasnt that good looking. But watching kimi wa petto, he was different from his other roles and I completely fell in love with the character Momo.

MOMO!!!
But you know, it makes me want to get my own pet. But obviously a hot jap boy pet. harharhar, that cooks. But I cant have them all...

but OHMYGODS!!! MATSU JUN!!! you're so cool! an amazing actor (agreed with aurora, in the end) and so kickass (jin: we [jin and matsujun] were in the elevator together and I said, "yoroshiku onegaishimasu." and you just smirked at me!) BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!

I get an evil, insane laugh when I remember it.

dude... momo... oh my god. my heart was copmletely stolen when he played momo. he still wasnt good looking but he was soo amazing playing it.

(and skinny... and flexible...)

Oh my gods. I cant take this. I have so much pent up fangirlisms, blogging jsut wont do enough justice to it. I must go and look for other ways to vent. ciao!

Labels: fangirlism