Thursday, February 8
|
Fatims: Dude. I havent heard from you in FOREVER. How are you, btw?
Kuya: I'll ask when I remember to. promise!
...
Well, today is my birthday. My current state is: bloated, gasy, tired, anxious, depressed, and contemplative.
I enter my first second as a person of the age of 21 farting my whole evening away. I'm tired from my schedule. I'm anxious about my application deadlines, and I'm depressed over my grandfather's death.
I'm pissed about jobert for getting his myspace back and not friending me for more than a month. I'm pissed that I have a growing list of people I want to ignore because they're either annoying, creepy or tiring.
most people in america, I enjoy in small (SMALL) incriments. And, honestly, the same might go for my family. >_>
...
I'll be there in the philippines for a while. but I have to focus on two important things: the funeral and my portfolio. I'll be damned if I am having to spend more of my years in south-fucking-jersey. I'd be damned if I did.
I'll be sticking to CVS. because I really like the people there. <3 Cheryl (bakes) is very good to me. Duane (buys me drinks) is very kind. Jason (bum) and Ebony (bitter) are funny. Christina always lends me an ear. Sam (gave me and jason left over pizza) is also nice. And brian, well, yea... he's one of those types of people.
The type I want to punch in the face. Haha. Well, he's a nice kid.
I'll keep this up till i leave. Cheryl promised to make me peanut butter cake on easter <3. I look forward to it.
hmm.. can you imagine it? Peanut Butter Sansrival? I know I'm getting over board here but let me be weird and experimental. tee-hee
...
Well, I'll make my resolution as I am now 21. I think I will stick to a new tradition of making resolutions at my birthday instead of the new year.
Resolutions are:
1. I will mediate at least once a week to weed out my intolerance for people.
2. I will take care of my body by exercising at least two low impact sessions week (ooo detailed) and eating enough fiber (tee-hee) and fruits and vegetables.
3. I will only allow myself to binge once every two weeks.
4. If I get into art school, I promise to be at least 15% more productive.
5. I will promise to save up 500usd and store it in my savings and NOT TOUCH IT until I retire.
6. I will give a good amount of effort to live minimalisticly and simply (in a material sense)
7. I promise to keep myself to myself and not be in a relationship with anyone because I am above dependance, lovey-dovey feelings and sexual orientation. I really am. <3
8. I promise to take care of my mommy, daddy and lola more.
9. I promise to make my lolo and myself proud.
10. And as usual, I promise to live a life i will not regret.
Wow. Thats a pretty long list. I hope I can keep it all.
You know whats sad? I'm finally 21 and I'm tired of drinking. I dont like getting wasted anymore or drinking hard liquor. I'm tired of that shit. Its good for me though but it completely breaks tradition with filler friends (I'm cruel).
Monday, February 5
|
Aurora: I havent watched the series yet. I think I'm going to read the manga first and then read the series after two or three months. just seeing the story repeat in a short amount of time makes me sick of watching it. I'm pretty sure it is. Its puppy love in the purest form. and yes. it is seriously gorgeous, isnt it?
Congrats on getting your old blog back! how did you do it?! you sent a complaint?
I hope you did watch ouran host club. Hot jap boys galore. If I were to pick a guy, it would be kyoya <3. he's so my type <3
Erika should date a man named Exodus or Psalms next or something.
"The guy from stormbreaker is cute." surprsing no?! my eyes kept on staring at his face during the whole movie saying to myself, "he's so pretty..."
I spent a hudred dollars on 12 articles of clothing and an awesome pair of shoes. I must show it to you.
Erika: Well, dont watch X for the story. xxxHolic is by one of the members of clamp. Not the main artist though. but for me its like petshop of horrors. I only saw a few chapters of it. I usually dont like clamp stories because their characters are too cheesy and not properly balanced. Everyone can do anything and be exptremely hot at the same time (hot, if you can ignore the misproportioned bodies)
CSS... is web design stuff. I think you're talking about CCS. haha its childhood! how could you not have seen it. well, we had an anime place we rented from when I was a kid. can you imagine? 45php per episode! it's murderous. thats where all my money went.
She's well known for .hack//sign and noir. but for me her work in tsubasa really outshined them all. she also did xenosaga II (or was it III?). I havent properly listened to it yet but it was a more refined orchestral version of xenosaga I. (because we all know that mitsuda cant orchestrate for shiznitz. I think she's yoko kanno's prodigy/disciple or something.
"You're like honey to the white race! Use it to your advantage. :D" I was talking to my coworker and she said that, that girl is actually after me. its fucking CRAZY. she's 8 years older than me and she has a kid. WHAT THE FUCK IS SHE THINKING?! SHE"S FUCKING CRAZY!! You'd think with me talking about pretty boy the whole time, she'd get that I'm straight but noooo~
if I was honey to white people then god send me the stormbreaker guy. He has a british accent, thus gets plus points.
...
I told my mom I want to go to the philippines for the funeral. but If i go I'll only stay there for 2 days. most likely a sunday and monday.
Sunday, February 4
|
My lolo died yesterday.
I...
I promise to reply to all of your comments after I get back from work. I was leaving the house yesterday evening at 10pm. I was a bit late. my brother was on thephone with me mom. I was a bit pissed because my mom was making me late for work.
then jasper said, "Mom said lolo died."
I was hanging by the door, only my head sticking in. I shouted, "Holy Fucking Shit!" I paused for a second and left for work.
I dont know if I'm actually calm about it or I keep pushing it out of my head. We were waiting for him to die before I left for america during winter break. He was barely conscious, he barely remembered me. A few days after I left, he came in a coma.
Mom said before he died, he had a hard time breathing and took a final breath in his sleep.
I want to go to his funeral. But I dont have a lot of free time. I have to prepare my portfolio for SVA. and part of me knows that lolo would have been happy to see me go to a university. Did you know that my lolo was my first favorite artist?
I always thought his drawings were so nice. He was really good at math and science. Science equals botany. Lolo would always draw such nice looking flowers. I remember I always asked him to draw for me.
On tuesday, I tripped and scaped me knee. I fell on my face. my glasses broke and I had scratches on my nose, hands and forhead. The last time I scraped my knee was when I was a kid. Lolo treated the wound for me. He was ana ss though. He poured hydrogen peroxide over my wound. it stung so bad. it was bubbling and everything. Because of him I got paranoid of hydrogen peroxide. But I used it when I disinfected my knee.
Shit. I'm going to be late for work.
I'll be back. Please pray for him and for my lola. To those who arent catholic, turn catholic for 5 minutes.
...
candalf: maybe I really should turn catholic
jason: dont say that
candalf: you know, my grandpa was a devout catholic
jason: well, that means he's in a better place right?
candalf: he better be.
